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  1. Skybreeze

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    Thinking about my aunt (whom I am very close to). She had a heart attack this afternoon and the doctors are looking into the possibility that it may be caused by cancer that spread, a side effect of he chemo and/or radiation or valve blockage. As awful as it sounds I’m hoping for a valve as it’s much easier for the doctors to treat. We’re hoping we will get some answers tomorrow or latest Monday.

    Then this morning my boyfriend’s parents found out they have a major gas leak in their home. So the fire department came to investigate it and found a hole in the pipes (the house is old and has original pipes still). So they’ve been evacuated from the house until it gets repaired. I’m also upset I missed the firemen. >:\

    So with all this fun stress my anxiety went through the roof today (felt like I was having a heart attack at times). Then, the vision in my right eye got a lot worse - I haven’t told anyone because I don’t want to stress everyone out more. If it’s not any better after I take my pills tonight, I will have to go to the ER and probably get put on IV steroids again...and another MRI. Stress and MS do not mix at all. Ugh! I just need things and people in my life to get better so I can get better and go back to work. Geeze.
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    evilbunnyfoofoo My shoes are laced with irony Staff Member Moderator

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    I'm sending you so many hugs Skybreeze!


    My 19 year old Pinkie has begun to decline. She's in no pain, but she's not eating or drinking much and when she is not sleeping (the majority of the time), she is listless and distracted. If don't think she'll be with me much longer. Of course, she's rebounded before, but at 19 she only has so many rebounds left. I'm trying to emotionally prepare for this, and working with animals that are in dire straits on almost a daily basis, I'm pretty pragmatic. But I don't know how I'm going to deal with her absence. When someone has been at your side for so long, they become part of your genetic material almost. KNowing that psychically, she is going to leave me, is terrifying. I know I should be grateful. She came from a very bad place and had 17 really good years with us, yet I want more. Dogs are just so... brief. I guess that's why they love us fiercely, they know their time with us has limitations. I'm just going to be so empty when she heads off on the Next Step of her Big Journey. Sorry to be a bummer. I just feel so selfish, wanting her to stay and knowing she has things to do in the spiritual journey.
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    I can 100% understand where your coming from. I was lucky to have 15 wonderful years with Zephyr. He was a fighter and apart of who I am as a person and I have truly been lost without him. It’s slightly easier day to day but I am still missing a large piece of me.

    My thoughts are with you and you can feel free to message, FaceTime/Skype or call me if you need to talk. I feel you hard core. Sending hugs and Clover kisses.
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    Feeling down and generally awful this entire weekend

    In-laws insisted I come over cause other in-laws came down to visit, just for them to act passive aggressive and make remarks vaguely generalized about me

    And the one i try to get along with just acts too tired whenever I talk so I just want to give up

    We get along just well enough for our kids to stay in touch, and that's it
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    -_- That’s frustration on so many levels. I’m sorry your feeling down but hope your feeling better!

    I’ve been sitting at the hospital with my aunt, uncle, mom and cousins. We’re waiting for the doctors to come and do an angiogram, then hopefully send my aunt home tonight. Worst case they’ll put a stint in right away and hopefully no further blockages.
    My BF’s parents are getting a new pipe put in for the gas line today so I’m hoping that’s going well too.
  8. Ology

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    My paw paw my be going for more test soon and chemo for his cancer soon
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    Well. My little dog Pinky is gone. I don't even know what to do. I picked a nice spot for her to rest, under the big tree in the front, next to Hank's dog Frosty, who died years before. I can't seem to even breathe, and I can't fathom why. I work with sick animals. I lose animals, they don't all make it. But it's so different this time. I wish I could just crawl in the hole with her. I am just lost.
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    I am completely gutted by this news. I am so sorry. Pinky was certainly lucky to have you and to have lived such a wonderful loving life for nearly two decades. I know how your feeling and I can assure you it does start to get a little better day by day but occasionally you’ll have reminders that hurt and it’s okay. It’s okay to take a moment to reflect and remember you time with Pinky and laugh or cry (or both some times). Sending you all my love and lots of hugs. :xmashug::xmashug::xmashug:
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    I'm so sorry to hear that :(
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    evilbunnyfoofoo My shoes are laced with irony Staff Member Moderator

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    Thank you. I was expecting it but when it happened I guess I just lost my mind for a little bit. I cried most of the day, which is unfair. She was ready to go, I don't have a right to stop her from proceeding in her life's journey. But I'm selfish, I admit it. I finally went to town and we bought a pot of purple mums to plant on her grave. I'm going to miss her like crazy, but I had her much longer than most people get to have their dogs. Especially since she came to me as a rescue from an abusive home and was really meant to be adopted out. She fell in love with Hank, who was 6 at the time, and just became part of the family.
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    As you well know, dogs have a way of sliding into your heart strings. As much as I fall every time I loose my beloved dog, I will always have one in my life. They bring so much love and joy into life that once you have one you just can’t stop.
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    My main problem is I love every dog or critter I see. And working to rehome them, I shouldn't get attached. But I do, I can't help it. I guess I'm a born sucker. :D
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    Finally put my ultimate travel playlist together. I was really worried that I had missed a song or put it in the wrong place sjkdsk. It has 84 songs on it which should last during any walk or car ride. I tried to organize my single songs into sub categories such as; Indie Folk, EDM, etc but I might have put a few of them in the wrong place hh. Some of them probably won't transition well when the playlist hits shuffle but whatever, I'll be too busy getting from point A to Point B so I probably won't notice too much. I'm gonna listen to it and see how it sounds, 60% chance that I either missed something or I'm going to have to take a song or two out.

    Edit: I definitely put some of them in the wrong place but at least the songs work well together. Nothing sounds out of place.
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    Who is Mario, really?? Like we all know him and Luigi as the “Super Mario Bros” but are they brothers? OR is Mario really his name? Like, if Mario and Luigi and the “Mario Bros” then that would make Luigi Mario and Mario Mario?? Like the Hemworth brothers, it’s Liam Hemsworth and Chris Hemsworth (all day in my dreams).
    So, what IS Mario’s true first name???? :blink:

    My bestie and I got into a very passionate discussion about this a couple of weeks ago. I can’t stop thinking about it now at 2am.... -_-
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    Had to look this up (wheeze), he's Mario Mario and Luigi is Luigi Mario. Mr. Miyamoto revealed that those were canonically their names a few years back. Never really thought about it until now jskssk
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    This is what insomnia does to your brain. Also, thank you for settling a debate that I have clearly won. :D And your welcome. Bet you loved that research project. Ahaha!!!
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