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It's pretty sad how quickly the holiday spirit can be ruined for me. I was doing really well for the last month. Mum and I made plans, decided to use the fake tree and spend the money we saved from buying a real one on new lights for teh windows instead, the plans were all made. Christmas morning was just the two of us, then after lunch we'd head over to my sister's new apartment and she and her husband were going to make Christmas dinner for us, nice and small, just us four, I'd be making dessert. I've been doing "homemade for teh holidays" this year and making everyone's gifts. My brother in law is the hardest person to shop for or come up with ideas for, but I came up with ideas, went out and bought the yarn. Everything's going great.
well it was. The fake tree is being destroyed by my cats, worse than a real tree would be because you expect to lose needles on a real tree, not a fake one, but Lune won't stop eating it. Shar climbs the tree and bends all the wire branches and causes parts of the tree to twist, which is pulling teh lights off (it's a pre-lit tree) We tried putting the tree up on a table with abarrier of presents (read empty boxes wrapped in paper to look nice) so that they couldn't get at it anymore. NOPE Shar still manages to do it somehow, and takes great pleasure in doing it. Mum put up a big wooden barrier around the tree while neither of us were home, I get home from work and it's been knocked over, Shar is in the tree, and Lune is asleep under it with fake needles in her fur. We're now talking about taking it down since we don't want it to be destroyed completely.
I bought two balls of yarn for making a scarf for my brother in law, and some other yarn to make some mittens to go with it. Well, after one ball of scarf yarn I realize...I will need a third ball...but the store is over an hour away and I can't do that trip for one ball of yarn. I've spent over six hours trying to make a single mitten and have nothing to show for it but a mangled ball of yarn so those are out of the picture now. I have NOTHING to give to him and next to no money with which to buy something. It took me a month just to come up with this idea.
The lovely small Christmas has become stressful because my sister's in laws are begging her to bring us all for CHristmas dinner there instead, and to avoid any bad feelings she and my mother agreed to it. I barely know the people and it's formal. I asked if there was anything I could bring but was told no, so there goes making a lovely dessert for Christmas dinner. I have to go out and buy something to wear because I have nothing that could work for winter formal wear. I don't even own any sweaters because they all were too small so I gave them to my sister last winter.
To top it all off this is the first Christmas where I won't have my sister there Christmas morning. It's just going to be so weird feeling.
I can't tell my sister how much the whole change in plans upsets me because I know how much it means to her to keep peace with the in laws over Christmas time.
Add to all of that the fact that I'm barely sleeping and am coming down with a cold or something and you have a ball of tears and wanting to just cancel the whole Christmas thing.
Sorry for ranting, I just had to get it all out somewhere and I'm trying so very very hard to not dump my depression on my mum again because I know how much it upsets her. I hate seeing my family upset, it just makes it even worse for me.
well it was. The fake tree is being destroyed by my cats, worse than a real tree would be because you expect to lose needles on a real tree, not a fake one, but Lune won't stop eating it. Shar climbs the tree and bends all the wire branches and causes parts of the tree to twist, which is pulling teh lights off (it's a pre-lit tree) We tried putting the tree up on a table with abarrier of presents (read empty boxes wrapped in paper to look nice) so that they couldn't get at it anymore. NOPE Shar still manages to do it somehow, and takes great pleasure in doing it. Mum put up a big wooden barrier around the tree while neither of us were home, I get home from work and it's been knocked over, Shar is in the tree, and Lune is asleep under it with fake needles in her fur. We're now talking about taking it down since we don't want it to be destroyed completely.
I bought two balls of yarn for making a scarf for my brother in law, and some other yarn to make some mittens to go with it. Well, after one ball of scarf yarn I realize...I will need a third ball...but the store is over an hour away and I can't do that trip for one ball of yarn. I've spent over six hours trying to make a single mitten and have nothing to show for it but a mangled ball of yarn so those are out of the picture now. I have NOTHING to give to him and next to no money with which to buy something. It took me a month just to come up with this idea.
The lovely small Christmas has become stressful because my sister's in laws are begging her to bring us all for CHristmas dinner there instead, and to avoid any bad feelings she and my mother agreed to it. I barely know the people and it's formal. I asked if there was anything I could bring but was told no, so there goes making a lovely dessert for Christmas dinner. I have to go out and buy something to wear because I have nothing that could work for winter formal wear. I don't even own any sweaters because they all were too small so I gave them to my sister last winter.
To top it all off this is the first Christmas where I won't have my sister there Christmas morning. It's just going to be so weird feeling.
I can't tell my sister how much the whole change in plans upsets me because I know how much it means to her to keep peace with the in laws over Christmas time.
Add to all of that the fact that I'm barely sleeping and am coming down with a cold or something and you have a ball of tears and wanting to just cancel the whole Christmas thing.
Sorry for ranting, I just had to get it all out somewhere and I'm trying so very very hard to not dump my depression on my mum again because I know how much it upsets her. I hate seeing my family upset, it just makes it even worse for me.
I know the dinner will go well and when it's all over you'll wonder why you were so worried to begin with. Plus, that means you can plan a Christmas in January dinner with your Sis and bro in law, no presents to worry about just good company and good food!