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Awww foofoo that story.. I wanna visit and play with gum drop!
 
I wish I could have you all come love on her, she'd really enjoy it. Then we could all hang out and talk Ponies!
 
Oh My Oh My oh My!!!! :ponylove::ponylove::ponylove::ponylove::ponylove::ponylove: So sweet!!! Congrats to you and Candy and even deadbeat STudmuffin (lol)! My son once worked with a horse at Special Equestrians named Boss! A long long time ago, though. I imagine it was a different Boss; he was probably pretty old at the time (nigh onto 15 years ago at this point) already. (Plus, you know, we're out east, here, so what are the odds?)
 
And after having bragged on her and gushed about her. I have to sadly tell you all my Sweet Baby Gumdrop is no more. She just went to sleep and was gone. The vet says it happens sometimes. To say that I am sad doesn't define the devastation I feel. even now several days later. I just needed her so badly if it makes sense. My life has been so hard this year. I lost my mom, I'm losing one of my dearest friends to cancer and I just needed that beautiful bright little light in my life. And I was so cowardly I didn't even want to come tell you all, knowing she'd made you all happy too. I don't know why we're sometimes given something so wonderful but only briefly. It's not that I've never had foals born here. Just never one like her. She was so small and so precious and I can't explain the unmitigated joy she brought me. I would go out every night and watch her sleep. I would sit with her in my lap and breathe in her lovely mane. It smelled so pure happiness to me. I had plans for her, that she would be my companion and I would make her little hats and then she was gone. And I am heartbroken and hurt over it.

In fact, I hate this whole year. because I also finally found my brother Don. I told some of you he was estranged from the family. He was adopted and wanted his birth family and he left to find them no matter what. It seems his search led him to his death perhaps. I was contacted by a police detective in South Dakota that my phone number was found in a wallet near human remains on the Pineridge Reservation. My brother Don had last been seen with a Lakota woman at a powwow in Oklahoma and he suspected he was Lakota but his adoption papers were sealed so we didn't really know. All I know at this point is they have remains and his wallet. I know in my heart that they are Don's, but I'll have to wait until they run all the tests. His ring was also found with the bones. They've been there for years apparently. Which is so awful. We've been searching for him, and he's been gone. Which is what my aunt has sworn all along. She said he would have called us but I guess he couldn't. It is not the ending I wanted for him. He drank, he did drugs. He fought. But I loved him. And think ing he died alone and uncared for is beyond me. I just want to bring him home. My uncles are trying to arrange to get him, but it's possible he was murdered. His remains will be evidence. My brother is in a box on a shelf and maybe died thinking we couldn't love him because we were not his blood but we were. And I will never get to tell him that now.

Then I killed a puppy. It's true. It was an accident and I hate myself but it all culminated with me killing a poor little pup because I wasn't careful. I'm so lost I just shoved the door of the guest room at my other house open. It was stuck and I never though tthe puppies I had brought in would be right behind it. When I pushed it open it went right over the top of the little runt and trapped him under the door. My aunt is deaf and Cameron wasn't with me so I had no one to call for help. I struggled to safely get the poor little puppy out from under the door. But the damage was done. He died before I could even find a vet on the phone at that late hour. I didn't mean to. I work to save puppies, not kill them. And that feels like my whole life right now. Every good thing I try to do I kill or it just dies anyway. I shouldn't even write this, but here it is.
 
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Oh foofoo! :( so sorry about your suckish year! That's horrible :sadpony: big hugs to you
 
Thanks, sweetie. You make my life better!
 
It will. I have to be positive. Being here helps me cheer up!
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
And after having bragged on her and gushed about her. I have to sadly tell you all my Sweet Baby Gumdrop is no more. She just went to sleep and was gone. The vet says it happens sometimes. To say that I am sad doesn't define the devastation I feel. even now several days later. I just needed her so badly if it makes sense. My life has been so hard this year. I lost my mom, I'm losing one of my dearest friends to cancer and I just needed that beautiful bright little light in my life. And I was so cowardly I didn't even want to come tell you all, knowing she'd made you all happy too. I don't know why we're sometimes given something so wonderful but only briefly. It's not that I've never had foals born here. Just never one like her. She was so small and so precious and I can't explain the unmitigated joy she brought me. I would go out every night and watch her sleep. I would sit with her in my lap and breathe in her lovely mane. It smelled so pure happiness to me. I had plans for her, that she would be my companion and I would make her little hats and then she was gone. And I am heartbroken and hurt over it.

In fact, I hate this whole year. because I also finally found my brother Don. I told some of you he was estranged from the family. He was adopted and wanted his birth family and he left to find them no matter what. It seems his search led him to his death perhaps. I was contacted by a police detective in South Dakota that my phone number was found in a wallet near human remains on the Pineridge Reservation. My brother Don had last been seen with a Lakota woman at a powwow in Oklahoma and he suspected he was Lakota but his adoption papers were sealed so we didn't really know. All I know at this point is they have remains and his wallet. I know in my heart that they are Don's, but I'll have to wait until they run all the tests. His ring was also found with the bones. They've been there for years apparently. Which is so awful. We've been searching for him, and he's been gone. Which is what my aunt has sworn all along. She said he would have called us but I guess he couldn't. It is not the ending I wanted for him. He drank, he did drugs. He fought. But I loved him. And think ing he died alone and uncared for is beyond me. I just want to bring him home. My uncles are trying to arrange to get him, but it's possible he was murdered. His remains will be evidence. My brother is in a box on a shelf and maybe died thinking we couldn't love him because we were not his blood but we were. And I will never get to tell him that now.

Then I killed a puppy. It's true. It was an accident and I hate myself but it all culminated with me killing a poor little pup because I wasn't careful. I'm so lost I just shoved the door of the guest room at my other house open. It was stuck and I never though tthe puppies I had brought in would be right behind it. When I pushed it open it went right over the top of the little runt and trapped him under the door. My aunt is deaf and Cameron wasn't with me so I had no one to call for help. I struggled to safely get the poor little puppy out from under the door. But the damage was done. He died before I could even find a vet on the phone at that late hour. I didn't mean to. I work to save puppies, not kill them. And that feels like my whole life right now. Every good thing I try to do I kill or it just dies anyway. I shouldn't even write this, but here it is.
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I just want to send you hugs so badly.

Ah well *hugs*
I'm truly, truly, truly sorry about Gumdrop and the puppy. Same happened with the neighbors. They found a chihuahua, took him home and he died the next day :/

*electronically hugs Foofoo tightly*

I'm sorry this year has been $#\+ to you. You don't deserve it. You deserve way better :)
 
Oh BunBun! I'm sending you lots hugs! It is good to share such things. Keeping them inside and all to yourself will only make the pain worse. Please know that your pony community is here for you!
 
*hugs* I'm so sorry that all of this has happened to you. I know how hard it can be when it feels like everything is going wrong. Sending lots of pony love your way.
 
Thank yo, Electric Harpsichord! It's so good to see you, it's been a while!
 
You're welcome! It's good to be back; life got pretty hectic for me for a while. :satisfied:
 
Oh my gosh I am in tears reading this. I am soooo so sorry foofoo. This is tragic and sad news, and all your losses too. I send you the biggest hugs. I just wish I could fix it all somehow. It was just a horrid accident with the puppy. We all know you love your animals so much. Major sympathy!!
 
Thank you, tula. Someone had dumped off the mom and three puppies a couple of weeks ago. They just rolled them out of their truck and sped off. One pup died within a few days. The one I hurt... I just never intended to hurt the poor little guy. He was so sweet and cute. He would've been easy to adopt out. The mom, I dunno. She's pretty unhappy (which I would be too if someone dumped me and my babies in the country), so i might not adopt her out. I might need to keep her. The last puppy though, he's seeming pretty healthy. I need to give him a good, promising name so he'll have a wonderful future. I call his mom Burrito. Maybe I'll name him Queso.

I should post a pic. You gals can name him!
 
evilbunnyfoofoo said:
Thank you, tula. Someone had dumped off the mom and three puppies a couple of weeks ago. They just rolled them out of their truck and sped off. One pup died within a few days. The one I hurt... I just never intended to hurt the poor little guy. He was so sweet and cute. He would've been easy to adopt out. The mom, I dunno. She's pretty unhappy (which I would be too if someone dumped me and my babies in the country), so i might not adopt her out. I might need to keep her. The last puppy though, he's seeming pretty healthy. I need to give him a good, promising name so he'll have a wonderful future. I call his mom Burrito. Maybe I'll name him Queso.

I should post a pic. You gals can name him!
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Aw gawd, I think I got sick with the adorable names. The momma is Burrito and he is Queso? Daaaaaaaaaaw!
 
Oh bunbun I hadn't seen your latest post and I'm so sorry for all you've been going through. I can't imagine how heavily all that pain is weighing on your heart, and I wish there was something I could do or say to help. All I can really do is offer my hugs and my sympathy.

Nature is such an unpredictable thing... even with the very best of intentions and best of care, things can go wrong seemingly without reason. I would not doubt for a minute that you are a loving, caring, nurturing person who has always done her best to care for any creature brought your way, and even if Gumdrop was only with you for a short time, I'm sure she felt nothing but absolutely, unconditionally loved. We should all be so lucky as to feel something that powerful.
 
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