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Man, it has been WAY too long...
Long story as brief as I can make it: My husband and I moved to Los Angeles in March 2013, after I sold about half of my pony collection to make it a reality. Once we got there, it became abundantly clear that this move only exacerbated issues that I had pushed to the side. My husband...is a manchild, and ridiculously co-dependent. I am a natural caretaker, so I fed into the cycle. For 17 years.
I left him last June. I moved back to Minneapolis. I have been in therapy, and am healing and doing very well. Karma has let me know that I made a wise decision...I am in a healthy, independent relationship with a long-time friend. We live together now, with our best friends, and we have a wonderfully happy household. I got an AMAZING job 4 days after I returned, and have been doing well there for almost a year. People have come out of the woodwork to say that they saw the same issues, and that they are happy for me. I'm back close to my family and friends, and my best friend (who we live with) is having a baby in the next few weeks. It's all very exciting!
I finally feel confident in reaching out and resuming my life. Ponies are kind of a trigger for me because there is a lot of pain attached to the fact that I sold so many of my beloved ponies for a move I never should have made in the first place. I beat myself up about it. But, my apology to myself is to buy those ponies, one or two at a time, until I have made it up to myself. I can afford to, and it's a meaningful gesture of self-forgiveness.
So, that's where I am at, pony friends. Healthy, happy and healing. Much love to you all, can't wait to reconnect!
Long story as brief as I can make it: My husband and I moved to Los Angeles in March 2013, after I sold about half of my pony collection to make it a reality. Once we got there, it became abundantly clear that this move only exacerbated issues that I had pushed to the side. My husband...is a manchild, and ridiculously co-dependent. I am a natural caretaker, so I fed into the cycle. For 17 years.
I left him last June. I moved back to Minneapolis. I have been in therapy, and am healing and doing very well. Karma has let me know that I made a wise decision...I am in a healthy, independent relationship with a long-time friend. We live together now, with our best friends, and we have a wonderfully happy household. I got an AMAZING job 4 days after I returned, and have been doing well there for almost a year. People have come out of the woodwork to say that they saw the same issues, and that they are happy for me. I'm back close to my family and friends, and my best friend (who we live with) is having a baby in the next few weeks. It's all very exciting!
I finally feel confident in reaching out and resuming my life. Ponies are kind of a trigger for me because there is a lot of pain attached to the fact that I sold so many of my beloved ponies for a move I never should have made in the first place. I beat myself up about it. But, my apology to myself is to buy those ponies, one or two at a time, until I have made it up to myself. I can afford to, and it's a meaningful gesture of self-forgiveness.
So, that's where I am at, pony friends. Healthy, happy and healing. Much love to you all, can't wait to reconnect!