Fingers crossed for surgery

It's gotten ridiculous. They wouldn't give my friend Mike painkillers when he was dying of cancer because he might get addicted. So what? He was dying. He had weeks left. Only when hospice started really throwing fits did they get him some meds to help him pass away without agony. It makes me furious. All because a buncha junkies can't control themselves. grr.



I'm like y'all. I don't wanna take the pain killers, but right now I am questioning my logic. It doesn't hurt I'm off my depression meds, but they've stopped working and I can't afford the bloodwork for them to try something else. I'll just be crazy, I guess. I'm pretty harmless. :D

I'm crazy and it's ok. I'm harmless as long as you don't mess with my daughter or my dog.
 
I'm crazy and it's ok. I'm harmless as long as you don't mess with my daughter or my dog.

I would straight up kill someone for my dog. Almost did once upon a time... Guy made me so mad. Lol
 
I would straight up kill someone for my dog. Almost did once upon a time... Guy made me so mad. Lol

I'm slow to anger, but nobody messes with my loves. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that they're ok.
 
I'm slow to anger, but nobody messes with my loves. I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that they're ok.

Ya. I lost it on a guy waiting for the subway once. Grab your popcorn ladies it’s story time with Sky.

One night after work, I was on my way home with Zephyr, who had come to work with me to have some new growths looked at (his cancer). So naturally we were both tired and he was feeling a little off from being poked and prodded through out the day. Anyways, while we waited for the subway to come on the platform some guy walks up and asked if her could pet Zephyr. Knowing my dog, I told him no because he was tired and had a long day and I didn’t want to stress him further as he wasn’t fond of strangers on the best of days. (An ex-roommate’s bf hit him as a pup and he was hand shy with strangers because of this.)
This guy, this GUY proceeds to tease my dog and get in his face. Three times I asked nicely for him to stop. He wouldn’t. I walked away, he followed. Then he pulls out a $100.00 bill from his pocket and rubs it all over my dog’s face. This is when I lost my mind. While I firmly told him off and told him to back off, I’m deciding how I will defend myself against him if he goes after me. My first thought was wrap my leash around his throat.... lol because I’m a strong independent woman. Lol (I’m like 5ft nothing.) anyways after my firm tongue lashing the train came and I got on a different car from him.
But boy oh boy was I mad and a cute little old lady said she was proud of me for standing my ground and protecting my dog. Who she decides to feed him her sandwich. Lol He was a happy pug then.
 
Good for you Skybreeze! Some people are just enormous butts when it comes to social behaviour and they need a good dressing down sometimes. I'm pretty nonconfrontational myself, but mess with my family or my animals (who are also my family in so far as I'm concerned) and it'll go poorly. I have little in life I think is worth fighting for, but my loved ones are it.
 
My mom once to my cat he should be run over in the road. Ooooh no you don't tell my fuzzy butt that. I gave her such a tounge whooping she back off said sorry.

A few weeks later sadly my sister dog was run over and passed. My mom was crying. I said see see this is how it fells when a pet you love gets run over. Never tell anyone there pet should be run over. It hurt worse then the deepest cut you can get. She agreed and has never said anything about any pet again.
I miss that little dog tooRIP
 
That's how I felt when my, then, 4 month old pup, injured his leg, and she told me that it would be cheaper to just put him to sleep and buy a new dog. He's 3 now and that leg is a 1/4 inch shorter than the others. He's got hardware inside still he picks it up when he runs, his little butt is visibly smaller on that side, and he can't jump as high as he would normally be expected to. Otherwise, he's healthy, happy, active, and absolutely the best service dog ever. It only very rarely hurts him if he bumps it, or in extreme temperatures. He walks on it, plays tug 'o war and fetch, he's beautiful. Aside from her callous yet true comment, no vet in any country that doesn't eat dogs would have put him to sleep. I love my little Wesley.
 
I know I've had several people tell me it was time to put my dog Pinkie down. She's deaf and blind, 18 years old. On September 3 she'll turn 19. Just because she can't see or hear is no reason to put her down as far as I'm concerned, and the vet agrees. She mainly sleeps, and when she's hungry she gets up and has a snack. I've made a little inside the house pen for her, about 8' by 3'. It eats up the den but oh well. That way she's with us, but I don't have to worry abut her getting lost. She was really good at finding her way, but I started to worry she was having trouble finding one of her beds (she has 3, spread through the house), that I made the pen. If living becomes painful for her, I'll do right by her. But her being inconvenient isn't enough of a reason to do her in. I got very angry at the very suggestion. She's been with us for 17 of those years. She means the world to us.
 
I know I've had several people tell me it was time to put my dog Pinkie down. She's deaf and blind, 18 years old. On September 3 she'll turn 19. Just because she can't see or hear is no reason to put her down as far as I'm concerned, and the vet agrees. She mainly sleeps, and when she's hungry she gets up and has a snack. I've made a little inside the house pen for her, about 8' by 3'. It eats up the den but oh well. That way she's with us, but I don't have to worry abut her getting lost. She was really good at finding her way, but I started to worry she was having trouble finding one of her beds (she has 3, spread through the house), that I made the pen. If living becomes painful for her, I'll do right by her. But her being inconvenient isn't enough of a reason to do her in. I got very angry at the very suggestion. She's been with us for 17 of those years. She means the world to us.

My parent's had an American Eskimo mini that was 15 blind, deaf, losing his sense of smell, and due to a fight with raccoons when he was young, he was in constant pain. Always on meds. Then he started losing control of his back legs entirely and bladder/bowel control. At that point, if there wasn't someone sitting right next to him, he would just lay still and listless. That's when they knew it was time.

My sister let her corgi drag her rear end around for over a year before she finally let her go. She never wanted to even eat, so I would have done it sooner. She had tumors, too.
 
I'm going crazy bored. My arm is like a separate entity that belongs to someone else. It's not the pain at this point, so much as the wrongness.
 
It’s 2:35am and I’m still awake and can’t get comfortable for the life of me. This is also with two sleeping pills in me since 6pm... my brain just doesn’t stop going ever. :,(

So I feel you on being crazy bored and feel like your a separate entity in of yourself.
 
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Pinkie made it to her birthday and she is now officially 19 years old! Old gal just keeps plugging along! I know her time is drawing her. Sometimes she sighs deeply, not from pain, but from a longing I think. She knows she needs to go on with her journey and leave us behind. She's getting ready to leave us, but knows we'll be sad. I know it must tear at her, wanting to go yet feeling she should stay. I tell her to feel free to go, that I'll catch up to her later.

But I confess here, I will be gutted when she does. I just can't let her know that. She has to be free to do what she needs to do on her path.

My parent's had an American Eskimo mini that was 15 blind, deaf, losing his sense of smell, and due to a fight with raccoons when he was young, he was in constant pain. Always on meds. Then he started losing control of his back legs entirely and bladder/bowel control. At that point, if there wasn't someone sitting right next to him, he would just lay still and listless. That's when they knew it was time.

My sister let her corgi drag her rear end around for over a year before she finally let her go. She never wanted to even eat, so I would have done it sooner. She had tumors, too.

Pinkie is surprisingly active sometimes. During the day she has to move about, finding the best spot, warmed by the sun coming in the window. When she finds that sweet spot she'll loll there and do her little dog smile. When she stops smiling, I'll know we're coming to the end.

Poor little corgi. That must have been hard to watch. Some people mean well, they just can't let go. When my mom had her last stroke my uncle (her brother) begged her to stay. Once he left my sisters and I told mom, to go if she needed to. We wanted her to do what she had to do. She drifted off peacefully a bit later while Lindy and I sat with her.

Funny isn't it? We can use chemicals to end our pets suffering, but not that of our human loved ones. They have to suffer and die 'naturally', while our pets are afforded a dignified exit.

I'm going crazy bored. My arm is like a separate entity that belongs to someone else. It's not the pain at this point, so much as the wrongness.

I hear ya. This leg thing is making me mental. I asked my aunt to just cut it off today. :D

It’s 2:35am and I’m still awake and can’t get comfortable for the life of me. This is also with two sleeping pills in me since 6pm... my brain just doesn’t stop going ever. :,(

So I feel you on being crazy bored and feel like your a separate entity in of yourself.

I hear this too! I go to bed, lie there thinking of whatever 80 mph then get up wander, then go back to bed... over and over all night and day. My lack of sleep is making me crazy.
 
Pinkie made it to her birthday and she is now officially 19 years old! Old gal just keeps plugging along! I know her time is drawing her. Sometimes she sighs deeply, not from pain, but from a longing I think. She knows she needs to go on with her journey and leave us behind. She's getting ready to leave us, but knows we'll be sad. I know it must tear at her, wanting to go yet feeling she should stay. I tell her to feel free to go, that I'll catch up to her later.

But I confess here, I will be gutted when she does. I just can't let her know that. She has to be free to do what she needs to do on her path.



Pinkie is surprisingly active sometimes. During the day she has to move about, finding the best spot, warmed by the sun coming in the window. When she finds that sweet spot she'll loll there and do her little dog smile. When she stops smiling, I'll know we're coming to the end.

Poor little corgi. That must have been hard to watch. Some people mean well, they just can't let go. When my mom had her last stroke my uncle (her brother) begged her to stay. Once he left my sisters and I told mom, to go if she needed to. We wanted her to do what she had to do. She drifted off peacefully a bit later while Lindy and I sat with her.

Funny isn't it? We can use chemicals to end our pets suffering, but not that of our human loved ones. They have to suffer and die 'naturally', while our pets are afforded a dignified exit.



I hear ya. This leg thing is making me mental. I asked my aunt to just cut it off today. :D



I hear this too! I go to bed, lie there thinking of whatever 80 mph then get up wander, then go back to bed... over and over all night and day. My lack of sleep is making me crazy.


My sister had just had her son when her corgi, nia, started really declining. She honestly just couldn't handle anything more than being a mom for a while. I don't blame her, it's huge upheaval of every aspect of life. I'm just glad that nia is playing stick happily with her buddy massak the American Eskimo somewhere again.

I'm for assisted suicide. Of course, I'm for the death penalty as well. My grandfather was essentially dying, on hospice, for almost ten years. He was well beyond ready to go. As for the death penalty.... repeat offenders, crimes so gruesome and proven beyond anyone's doubt, why do we pay to keep them alive?

It's also funny you should say that, because I told my daughter it would be less painful and bothersome to just cut it off. She said she'll make me auto mail like in the "full metal alchemist". Lofty goals, my girl.

I slept for a full five hours last night... I'm sick and Nyquil knocked me out like a concussion, except I stayed out. It's been so long since I've gotten a block of sleep like that. Sadly, I just feel even worse for waking up. Last night was our first real rain in close to four months and it finally dipped into the low 50's. Fall always does this to me.
 
My sister had just had her son when her corgi, nia, started really declining. She honestly just couldn't handle anything more than being a mom for a while. I don't blame her, it's huge upheaval of every aspect of life. I'm just glad that nia is playing stick happily with her buddy massak the American Eskimo somewhere again.

I'm for assisted suicide. Of course, I'm for the death penalty as well. My grandfather was essentially dying, on hospice, for almost ten years. He was well beyond ready to go. As for the death penalty.... repeat offenders, crimes so gruesome and proven beyond anyone's doubt, why do we pay to keep them alive?

It's also funny you should say that, because I told my daughter it would be less painful and bothersome to just cut it off. She said she'll make me auto mail like in the "full metal alchemist". Lofty goals, my girl.

I slept for a full five hours last night... I'm sick and Nyquil knocked me out like a concussion, except I stayed out. It's been so long since I've gotten a block of sleep like that. Sadly, I just feel even worse for waking up. Last night was our first real rain in close to four months and it finally dipped into the low 50's. Fall always does this to me.

Yes. I agree 100% on assisted suicide and death penalty. Especially here in Canada. Sometimes I feel our laws and justice system have failed a lot of people.

OMG!! I am SO happy to finally have some “fall” weather. It has been so refreshing from the heat and humidity. I’m on a lot of medications that make me extremely hot so the cool weather is best weather for me lately.
 
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Yes. I agree 100% on assisted suicide and death penalty. Especially here in Canada. Sometimes I feel our laws and justice system have failed a lot of people.

OMG!! I am SO happy to finally have some “fall” weather. It has been so refreshing from the heat and humidity. I’m on a lot of medications that make me extremely hot so the cool weather is best weather for me lately.

I love fall and spring. Lots of rain, moderate temperatures, and such beautiful color! My thyroid is so dysfunctional that my body can't regulate it's internal thermostat at all. I can't take heat or cold. At least with cold, I can put on more layers. Then it takes forever to change temperatures. o_O
 
I love fall and spring. Lots of rain, moderate temperatures, and such beautiful color! My thyroid is so dysfunctional that my body can't regulate it's internal thermostat at all. I can't take heat or cold. At least with cold, I can put on more layers. Then it takes forever to change temperatures. o_O

Yes!!! Finally someone understands me! Lol I like the cold because it’s easier to warm up then cool down.
 
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My sister had just had her son when her corgi, nia, started really declining. She honestly just couldn't handle anything more than being a mom for a while. I don't blame her, it's huge upheaval of every aspect of life. I'm just glad that nia is playing stick happily with her buddy massak the American Eskimo somewhere again.

I'm for assisted suicide. Of course, I'm for the death penalty as well. My grandfather was essentially dying, on hospice, for almost ten years. He was well beyond ready to go. As for the death penalty.... repeat offenders, crimes so gruesome and proven beyond anyone's doubt, why do we pay to keep them alive?

It's also funny you should say that, because I told my daughter it would be less painful and bothersome to just cut it off. She said she'll make me auto mail like in the "full metal alchemist". Lofty goals, my girl.

I slept for a full five hours last night... I'm sick and Nyquil knocked me out like a concussion, except I stayed out. It's been so long since I've gotten a block of sleep like that. Sadly, I just feel even worse for waking up. Last night was our first real rain in close to four months and it finally dipped into the low 50's. Fall always does this to me.

That's sad with your sis. Having a baby makes your hormones so crazy, there's so many demands you you with the baby itself... it's a crazy time. She probably just didn't have the emotional wherewithal to deal with the dog too. I've done this in the past with my aunt's chihuahua Sweetheart. Her time came and we just couldn't let her go. We carried her around on a pillow, because we just couldn't do it. Gladly, Sweetheart didn't last long in that state, but it is my great shame because I allowed it to continue. She never appeared to be in pain, but I'm sure the lack of mobility wasn't pleasant for her. It's on me. But I know she forgave me, because she gave me a great amount of kissing, right before she left us. Dogs are generous, magnanimous creatures.

I'm for it all too. People should be allowed to choose. If life is too painful that existence is a misery, I fear it can set them back spiritually. Death should be peaceful, so our transition to the next stage is a pleasant one. And the death penalty should be used more. It's supposed to be a deterrent, and it can't be if someone knows they'll have 400 appeals and a comfortable cell for 30 years while they duke it out in court. Criminals should never have more rights than their victims and they do now. It isn't right. Of course, I have very personal reasons for feeling like this, my husband Steve, Action hank's father was murdered. I've been through the whole horrible court process. But I learned a lot from it. And I think it gave me a lot of strength and wisdom I may not have gained otherwise. Plus I have Hank, and he's awesome.

My aunt (she's 75) has been reading about the Civil War lately and the quick amputations they would perform. She offered to try to saw my leg off, but I think her arthritis might slow her down. Maybe we could start a home amputation business! :D
 
I'm sorry you had to go through all of that @evilbunnyfoofoo :cry: you're amazing to have come through it stronger.

As for your aunt... yeah, I think we'd be better off starting our own. Lol.
 
I’m sorry to hear about your husband @evilbunnyfoofoo . It’s a horrible thing you and your son have had to go through that no one should ever have to go through that ever. But I guess that comes from someone who can’t even imagine killing someone (I have a hard enough time with euthanasia at work). Hugs to you both.

Lol! Your aunt sounds like a riot!! Someone I could for sure hang around with. :)
 
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Oh poop. I saw my shoulder specialist yesterday. Hoping for a rather simple shoulder surgery. The doctor says that my symptoms are congruent with nerve damage higher up. He xrayed my neck since I was told to make sure he knew about it. He said the degree of degeneration is severe for someone my age. Normally you wouldn't see it in someone under 65, apparently. So now I get a neck mri and possibly that horrifying neck surgery. There's supposedly also a brace they might try. That you wear a week and then off a week with pt, repeat, repeat, repeat. Forever. Apparently either option is excruciatingly painful. I won't be able move my neck while in a brace, recovery from surgery, which I'll probably need eventually anyway, is like a week of, use a bedpan or catheter, immobilized. I'm a little scared. I was hoping for another 10 years before the possibility of this surgery. On the other hand, the brace, and all other options are almost worse since I'll be unable to drive at all, and pretty much unable to do anything fun with my daughter.

This week has been rather awful. First I get disparaged, put down, and insulted in every way, then threatened, more debt, and the light at the end of the tunnel is so dim. This just after a burst pipe, falling on my hurt shoulder, dealing without my bedroom, and I had to re-purchase what was stolen from my daughter. I've been dropping things and can barely use my dominant arm. I get shooting electric pains throughout my arm. My fingers feel lik sausages. They go numb half the time. I'm done ranting. I'll go cry now.
 
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